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The important thing is are you mad but functional, or just plain useless?
Clearly you are the former. Complete sanity is overrated.
- I would love to change the world, but they won’t give me the source code.
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I am and I'm not. I've got high IQ which I'm told helps with functioning when it comes to mental illness.
At the same time, I rock myself, I talk to myself, I can't control when I "daydream", and this is all punctuated by bouts of mania and psychosis though the meds help.
It makes it difficult for me to find work, and keep a job, which sucks. Also, there's no way I can work in software development anymore, despite me having the technical ability to be good at it, still. I can't manage myself, or my time, much less a project to the degree necessary to be effective.
When I left software, I did it of my own accord. However, I always thought I'd have the possibility of going back again. As of now, that's probably just not in the cards.
And I feel a sense of loss around that.
What you see of me is the lucid and heavily medicated end of me. And you don't see my behavior, body language, or general cadence or you'd know I was mad right off.
That's an employability killer. I've come to understand that.
When I was growin' up, I was the smartest kid I knew. Maybe that was just because I didn't know that many kids. All I know is now I feel the opposite.
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You need to look into working from home doing software development for a sympathetic employer. Hard to find but I have a friend who is, shall we say a little bit, manic and she programmed very successfully from home for several years until a separate health problem interfered. Her company got together physically only four time a year. Conference calls were common, not video conferencing, just shared whiteboards, I believe. So these jobs exist.
- I would love to change the world, but they won’t give me the source code.
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I had something like that out of Santa Monica (i live near seattle) last time i worked in the field.
it worked for awhile, and then it didn't, although there were other reasons. The guy thought he could short change me on my pay. Tried to get me to write for $25/hr 1099, and I was like no way, i can't afford that, so insisted he pay me W2 so he takes up half of the Soc Sec expense. It worked, but I still felt cheated.
A combination of that, and just the general difficulty i have in managing my own time, I decided to leave.
Still, it almost worked. Maybe I could find something like that again.
I thought about doing ODesk/Upwork, but then again, time management and task management. I'm not so sure i'm up to it.
When I was growin' up, I was the smartest kid I knew. Maybe that was just because I didn't know that many kids. All I know is now I feel the opposite.
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If possible, try to find a remote job working for a government, city, county, state or federal - they have quotas for disabled employees and they are all supposed to be trying to increase the percentage of remote workers where possible. Also Government jobs are generally less demanding on deadlines - although there is more accountability for time spent usually. In addition, they have better attitudes with working around disabilities (mostly).
As far as the high IQ you mentioned, I had a similar problem. When I was working as a professor at university (I held the Chair of Computing for a time), I had a lot of intellectual equals and generally kept within that "sphere" for friendship. Once I left to "get a real job" I lost touch with a lot of them and found it hard to socialise with "regular" people as I found them slow and/or dimwitted in general (and often overly obsessed with sports). Dancing with them was fine but conversations were really hard work!
Luckily I ended up marrying an ex-cheerleader who also was a genius! Happily ever after, so far - although she had a accident and suffered major brain damage it didn't reduce her IQ, just slowed her down a bit and causes memory drop-outs now and then.
- I would love to change the world, but they won’t give me the source code.
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Relatable content. I married a genius too, although I'm the one that ended up with a disability (i'm schizoaffective)
Hey, dr. compsci.
how the hell do I implement arden's theorem in order to turn a finite state machine into a regular expression?
I've never been able to do it. I'll buy you beer if you can show me how. (c#, C++, java, I don't care)
When I was growin' up, I was the smartest kid I knew. Maybe that was just because I didn't know that many kids. All I know is now I feel the opposite.
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Give me a minute... (or two...)
- I would love to change the world, but they won’t give me the source code.
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I think you'd enjoy Mihaly's work: [^].
What I find interesting is his combination of an emphasis on "total immersion" in the "state of flow," Quote: Flow is being completely involved in an activity for its own sake. The ego falls away. Time flies. Every action, movement, and thought follows inevitably from the previous one, like playing jazz.
combined with a very Stoic (as in Marcus Aurelius' "Meditations") view of the ability, and necessity, of/for the individual to create their own mental life;Quote: What I "discovered" was that happiness is not something that happens. It is not the result of good fortune or random chance. It is not something that money can buy or power command. It does not depend on outside events, but, rather, on how we interpret them. Happiness, in fact, is a condition that must be prepared for, cultivated, and defended privately by each person. People who learn to control inner experience will be able to determine the quality of their lives, which is as close as any of us can come to being happy.
«Where is the Life we have lost in living? Where is the wisdom we have lost in knowledge? Where is the knowledge we have lost in information?» T. S. Elliot
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Great quotes. I'll definitely look up his work.
When I was growin' up, I was the smartest kid I knew. Maybe that was just because I didn't know that many kids. All I know is now I feel the opposite.
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codewitch honey crisis wrote: I still "feel normal" to me - the crass hegemony of the mind.
That is a wonderful thought !
«Where is the Life we have lost in living? Where is the wisdom we have lost in knowledge? Where is the knowledge we have lost in information?» T. S. Elliot
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it's hard though, relearning what my limits are. that's probably been one of my major challenges becoming disabled. That and not being sure I can trust myself anymore.
When I was growin' up, I was the smartest kid I knew. Maybe that was just because I didn't know that many kids. All I know is now I feel the opposite.
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I'm absolutely positive that I'm dysfunctioning at an level...
"The only place where Success comes before Work is in the dictionary." Vidal Sassoon, 1928 - 2012
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Here goes, my first ever attempt at setting a crossword clue:
Endless speed, sing maybe, Robin? (8)
Endless speed = Haste
sing maybe = ings
Robin -> Sidekick -> HASTINGS (Poirot's sidekick)
I've no idea if this is good, bad, OK...
Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have. -Anon
modified 29-Jul-19 8:33am.
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SPEEDING?
Anagram of "PEED SING"?
Sent from my Amstrad PC 1640
Never throw anything away, Griff
Bad command or file name. Bad, bad command! Sit! Stay! Staaaay...
AntiTwitter: @DalekDave is now a follower!
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Nope, sorry
Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have. -Anon
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I was hoping you would say that! (It would have been a very poor clue if it was)
Sent from my Amstrad PC 1640
Never throw anything away, Griff
Bad command or file name. Bad, bad command! Sit! Stay! Staaaay...
AntiTwitter: @DalekDave is now a follower!
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Totally wild guess - songbird ?
We can’t stop here, this is bat country - Hunter S Thompson RIP
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Sorry, no
Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have. -Anon
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Sorry, no - follow that path, though!
Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have. -Anon
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I'm not sure what that path even is though.... crusader?
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I'm afraid not...
Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have. -Anon
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Perhaps you might want to add a hint to help us out?
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Might be giving out the answer if I added anything to it...  But, follow the path to "Robin"
Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have. -Anon
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Perchant ( getting desperate now ) 
We can’t stop here, this is bat country - Hunter S Thompson RIP
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